Sometimes the only way to do it is to jump on in.
Tonight I had a Flow Class with Christine Northcote at Full Circle. It is a fast paced class with lots of fun positions for me. It is a class where I tend to forget about my breathing and pay more attention to the instructor, but I like that challenge and I try to focus back on my breath. Tonight I was really concentrating and trying to get in rhythm with my breath. Then "Express Yourself" came on, and I decided to just say fuck it and have some fun. I got a little beat in my feet and threw the breathing out the door. Sometimes I take life too seriously, and a lot of the times I don't really need to. So I guess the mantra I was saying tonight in my head was "fuck it". It made the practice fun.
My thoughts today were based off a conversation I had with a friend earlier in the day. She mentioned that she had been very lucky that life has turned out so well for her. I do not believe in luck anymore. Luck to me seems like a bashful excuse when something goes right in your life. You are the one that wakes up in the morning. You are the one that gets out of bed. You are the one that decides what to do when you walk out that door. What if you left out the door 6 second too late or too early. It is your conscience that leaves out that door at that moment, not luck.
Luck does not put you on your mat and somehow get you to twist more and more into a position. It is you that drives that force inside you and it is your determination or acceptance that allows you to get there.
So why is it that you say you are lucky when good things come to you? You do not say you are lucky when bad things happened to you. To me these are one in the same. They are the reasons on why you are on your current path. You are the one that determines which path you go on. The path sometimes turns towards glory or towards hardship, but the important thing is to keep it "your path" not the person who may have given you this feeling of glory or hardship.
The "luckiest" people in the world seem to have such a great outcome, because they do what they love and jump on in. They do not fear the outcome. Maybe they do not know the direction their path is going, but they somehow face the fear of the unknown and jump on in.
After two weeks of doing yoga 308 I am beginning to ask the question of "What is my reasoning for doing this?" The truth is I have no idea. I know that it has been calling to me. I know that I love yoga. I also know that good things have happened when I listen to my gut.
I have to face the fear of the idea of what other people will think when they read my thoughts. I have to wonder if anyone is going to read this or care. Will I get tired of doing yoga? Will I get hurt? What if something happens? Ahhhhhh the unknown. It's amazing how I can send my mind there. Here's the truth though. The results will be some people will love this, some people will hate this, and something will happen. This is my path! This is what I am supposed to do. It is about the journey of doing it not what others think, say, or do.
So I am at the edge...Jump on in! So what are you waiting for. Please comment or email me letting your know what is "lucky" in your life.