What is Yoga 308
Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Day 27 - Compassion
This morning I went to Orlando Power yoga where I went in for some more hot yoga with Reider Howe. It was a good class where I felt a decent work out along with a pretty good mental check in. The topic of the day seemed to be Compassion.
When I first started to do yoga 308 I felt very excited and found myself pushing myself to the extreme. The problem that I am finding is if I continue to push myself as hard as I did in week 1 there is no way I will last for a full year. My knee was pretty sore at the end of last week. I felt like it was time to take back off quite a bit and show some compassion to myself and my body.
I come from a background of playing high school football. The mental state that was engraved into our brains was go go go, push push push, and it did not matter if we had an injury. We seemed to endure the pain and we were actually made to feel like a wimp if we sat out to nurse an injury.
I still have a lot of this competitiveness in my brain. There are still times that I want to push myself further because I feel like I have to. As if someone is watching me and judging me for the pose I am in or not doing. This seems to happen more when I go to a new studio. I feel like I have to prove myself to these new people. I wish I did not think this way, but wanted to bring it up, because I am pretty sure I am not alone on this one.
Today I worked on keeping myself in check. My knee has been bothering me so I nursed it this entire week. I did not get into poses like camel pose, back bending, or anything that bent my knee in a position that may agrovate it. Instead I sat kneeling.
I have to admit, when I did this my first thoughts were "people think I am weak for not doing this" or "people are looking at me." I would love to say I was completely good with this, but hey I am human.
I have also noticed that I have been telling other people who are just starting up yoga to not feel competitive, or think that everyone is looking at them. The more and more people I told this to I realize that I am actually the one that worries about this. This is not only in yoga, but also in a few other aspects of life.
Finding compassion like this is not only going to save my body, but it is also going to allow me to find out much more about myself. I am going to continue this practice through next week. Do not push myself and instead enjoy how far I have come and where I am.
Are you afraid to show people you are weak? Do people actually think this fear is an actual weakness? Are you showing yourself the compassion you deserve? Tell me your story. Email me or comment.