What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Day 53 - Yoga Brain

Ummm still hungry.  It is the final night of the juice cleanse.  At this point I am thinking of doing a cheeseburger cleanse now.  Maybe 3 days of pizza milk shakes?  I am pretty much over this cleanse.  I was in it for the pshcological part of it, but also lost 6 pounds in three days.  I know this weekend though I will be eating a lot because of the fact that I deprived myself from food.  I am sure this weight will come back over this weekend.

OK back to yoga.  Yoga was pretty difficult last night.  I went to Orlando Power yoga with Michelle Coutinho.  I felt pretty weak and unmotivated all day (due to the cleanse).  So going into it I knew I had to be gentle to myself.  This seemed to come easy to me tonight and I started to find a comfort with my mind and body throughout the practice.   I think it came easy because I could justify it.  Since I was not eating food I must be weak, so I can take it easy.  I am going to have to work on just being gentle with myself more without any justification.

When I entered savasana I was in a bliss.  When I closed my eyes I felt as if I was floating.  I felt really good and in a calm state.  I felt like nothing was around me for miles, but ocean.  It made me think of a story I had once written about a creature coming up from the sea.  The creature lived in the depth of darkness in the ocean.  One day he slowly made his way out of the darkness to the ocean surface.  When he broke the surface he took his first breath ever, saw the sun, and felt it's warmth for the first time ever.  The story continues as he floats in the ocean.

I began to think of what it would be like to enjoy your first breath and feel the warmth of the sun for the first time.  This vision filled me with a warmth.  I felt at ease.  I felt very grateful for the people around me.  I felt warmth.  When I got up to leave I was out of it.  I had yoga brain.  This is a hard thing to explain.  It is a big high, almost like you are on some type of drug.  In fact it is the closest feeling I get to drugs without doing them.  I guess you might be able to compare it to a runners high.  I seem to find more of the Yoga brain when I do slower, gentler classes.  When I spend my time focusing on the breath.  If I can combine the breath with postures this is the ultimate high for me.  I am sure this is different depending on who you are.

I feel like I have been demanding a lot on myself.  I have had great discipline over the last 53 days.  I keep adding more and more.  I am beginning to wonder why I am being so demanding to myself.  What is it that I am battling with.  Next week I am not going to have any diet goals.  I am going to look for the pleasures of life.  Eating food again will be like taking my first breath again. 

Do you have any good yoga brain stories?  Email me or leave a comment.