What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Day 57 - Fluffy little clouds

This morning I went to Full Circle Yoga and took a hot Hatha class with Marilyn Glasser.  It was everything I was expecting from the class.  Sweaty, vigorous, and fast paced.  I am looking to get to yoga earlier in the morning so I can have the rest of the day and evening to concentrate on work.  It worked out pretty good today. 

Sometimes yoga makes my mind wonder.  If this happens sometimes I just let it go and pay attention to the journey.  During yoga today my mind went back into the past.  I was fighting with a lot of anger that had built up in 2011.  Through the anger I continued to go further back into time. I went through college, high school.  I went back to when I was a child and I sat in the yard with my mom making shapes out of clouds.  I remembered and embraced the peaceful feeling.  I remembered that feeling of ease, and started to wonder why life complicates things.  At what point did it get complicated. 

I had what I consider a good upbringing, but there was always some type of worry.  Looking back life has a lot to worry about, but I put my own worry into my head.  I worried about getting good grades, I worried about getting grass stains on my jeans when I played outside.  I worried about kissing girls, I worried about being strong enough or fast enough for football.  I worried about going to school with braces.  I worried about being popular. 

Where did these worries come from?  Looking back most of these worries were ridiculous, and some never went away.  So as we grow older do we just find new worries to replace these old ridiculous worries?   I think some of us might embrace the worried feeling.  Finding comfort in worry.  Growing and becoming stronger through worry.  Why?

When I was lost in anger this morning, how nice is was to find and remember that vision of peace, where life was so simple and all I did was sit and watch the clouds.  I noticed myself latter tonight staring at the sky.  Looking at clouds and a rainbow and remembering this peaceful moment again.  These worry free moments are in my head just like the moments I used to worry.  They can be used to combat against each other.

This morning I went through anger, then to worry free, and then found peace.  Life is filled with scary moments, worries, and crazy times.  If we try to ignore these parts of life we will never grow.  We will never find a sense of peace.  They are part of life.  Use your worries to grow closer to heart. When you are going through your practice and these feeling come up realize they are just feelings, they are just moments in time, and just like your breath they will come and they will go.  

 Keep it simple.  Email me or leave a comment.