What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Day 58 - Now

Today I started off looking for new classes.  New experiences, new people, and new ideas.  I went to Shine on Yoga and took a Hatha Yoga Flow class with Jessica Londono.  The class was not hot which made for a nice break from the steam rooms I have been practicing in.  Jessica has a great flow which allowed me to relax and find my breath.  It was what I was after today.

My mind was all over the place yesterday.  My thoughts of anger and my worries yesterday were based on the fact I was looking back into the past.  This was probably triggered because I am moving into a new house.  There is a lot tied into moving into a new place for me right now.  I am not 100% sure what I want in the future.  This uncertainty makes me look back to the past which causes a lot of anger, fear, and worry.  These were my thoughts for a period of time yesterday, but not my present moment.  Yoga helped me bring my mind back to the now.  I did have to go on quite a bit of an adventure to get there though.

My intentions today in class were to find the now again.  Living in the now allows whatever emotion you choose.  You can come to the terms that you are feeling one emotion and decide if you want to continue to live with this emotion.  I feel if I am not comfortable with the emotion (both positive or negative) I feel I start to search for something new.  The only way I know how to find a new emotion is to search in either my past memories or go to thoughts of the future.  I can find all the emotions I once felt in the past.  Yesterday it was anger from my divorce, followed by peace when I  looked at clouds when I was a child.  Are these past memories true locks of our emotions?  Did we not feel enough of these emotions when we first experienced them?

If we start thinking about the future.  If we start thinking about where to live, how to pay our bills, are our friends ok?  Worries of our future start evolving because of memories from our past.  So what is the solution?

It is the "now".  This is where true peace lies.  When our emotions start to take the best of us how do we find peace.  We cannot continue to worry or look forward to the future or look into the past for answers.  It is the "now".  This is where I find peace.

When I breathed in Jessica's class this morning I found my now.  I heard my breath, I felt my emotions, but were not tied to them.  I was me, and was exactly where I was supposed to be.

Where is your now.  Where is your mind taking you?  Are you looking for emotions, or are you just feeling emotions?  Email me or leave a comment.