What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Day 86 - Be ok with my emotions

I am back in Orlando and back to Orlando Power Yoga for a class with Beth Stone.  It was good to be back into something familiar, and Beth is such a great instructor.  She is a loving and caring individual and it shows in her class.  I was also glad to be sweating and in a hot room again.  Vacation is a great place to take a break from a routine, but I also love the place I am in now.

Leaving Denver was a little emotional for me.  I love Colorado, and there is a big piece of me that wants to be there.   There is a lot of anger and hatred still found in my heart from my divorce, and being there stirs these emotions up.  This leads to me feeling frustrated for feeling this anger and hatred as if I am not supposed to feel these emotions any more.  As if I am not aloud to feel these emotions.  I am often my worst enemy.  I am still dealing with things, and have to allow myself to just be ok with some mistakes I have made in my past.

Beth said something today that helped me come to grips with my emotions.  She was saying how she felt both sad and happy today, reminding me that life is not always perfect.  We do not have to stay in one emotion.  We go through our days shifting from excitement, happiness, sadness, anger, and whatever comes up.  I like to try to act like I should not feel certain emotions.  Like I am supposed to always be happy, excited, loving, ect.  I do not allow myself to be these other "negative" emotions easily.  Yesterday I was angry and sad for about 2 hours in the airport.  I was frustrated for feeling these emotions.  And then I was happy again followed by excited to be home.  To me these are signs that I am growing healthy again.

This anger and sadness is probably going to stay in my heart for some time.  It is part of who I am.  The past is the past.  It is never to be changed.  The only thing we can do is learn from our past and use it to go into the future.

Yoga was a great centering for me today.  I look forward to my next visit to Colorado and am glad to be in my home tonight in Orlando.  I am at peace with the now :)