Somedays you should sit like a king :)
This morning I woke up still in the funk. No reason, it's just there. I would love to say I woke up happy and joyous and I figured it all out, but I didn't. On these days I wake up down, I seem to fight my way out of it by the end of the night. I am finding it fascinating that I seem to be going through the same things throughout my days, but this week was frustrating while last week was fun. Could it be all in my head, my diet, my surroundings, one simple butterfly effect? Is it the fact that I look to far into all of these things?
Yesterday I found comfort in the Yin class with Kristen Schneider at Full Circle Yoga. It was a gentle practice that has been much needed for my soul this week. Today I was just going through the motions at yoga. I was there, but my mind and body really did not want to be there. I went to Steve Rubin's Ashtanga class at Full Circle Yoga. I started to think thoughts like... Is it the yoga that is wearing me down, or is it my life leaves me drained in yoga? I did not challenge myself, rather I just did all the postures. What if I never pushed myself to the limit? Is pushing myself more or less helpful in my life?
The best thing that Steve did for me today was at the very end of the class I was sitting and meditating. He came over and gave me a quick adjustment straightening my posture and said "Stay Proud." It was such a simple thing to say, but it was what I needed to hear this morning.
I feel like I do not like to give myself credit. I do not like to say I am proud of my accomplishments. Times like this week I like to sit back and look at my faults. I need to push myself for some reason. I need to keep moving forward. Days like today where I just go through the motions, I do not feel like I accomplish anything. I am so demanding on myself, and do not like to waste time.
I am learning.