Orion found this white feather for me. Beauty is in the air.
It is my day off, and a much needed one. I have been playing mind games with myself all week, but feel a bit more settled today. I am getting a chance to clear some of my clutter, literally and figuratively. I was able to sit and organize my house a bit and get some painting done. This has aloud my mind to settle. I wonder how much these two are connected.
Orion and I were walking this morning when we stumbled upon this white feather (please see day 61 - the white feather). To me the white feather is a symbol that I am on the right path. So as this week brought up emotions of sadness, depression, anger, and frustration, I am reminded this will not be the last time these emotions will come up. I am looking for the honest approach to let myself feel these emotions and not be ashamed or embarrassed if they do come up. These are releases that my body and mind need to get out and once again try to secure that peaceful and loving feeling.
I often bring up the question. What is Yoga? This is always going to be an unanswered question, as it means something different for everyone. It also is hard to answer because it also changes a lot with me. Lately yoga has been a lot on my mental side of things. I am able to accept the fact that I cannot do the splits, but I am unable to accept the fact that I have "negative" emotions. I am able to accept the fact that I have tight hamstrings, but I cannot accept the fact that I am not constantly in the now. I am very demanding on myself and yoga gives me the opportunity for acceptance. I am just now starting to realize this. I would love to be able to say I have figured this out, but I am not here to tell you about all the things I am great at. I do get frustrated that I have not figured out this acceptance yet (see how I drive myself nuts)
I am thinking if I was to take a yoga class where I do only postures that I am not good at, my mind would start focusing on the fact that I am not good at these postures. This is how my mind and a lot of others work. I focus on the aspects I can improve, never satisfied with the present, and always striving to move onto the next thing. Whats next? Whats next? I gotta do this! I gotta do that! I do not like to accept things. I am working on this acceptance. I do get frustrated that I have not figured out this acceptance yet (see how I drive myself nuts). Yoga is my path to finding peace with this mind.
Stop, Relax, Let life happen. Feel your emotions move through you. Feel Love, Feel Sadness, Feel Anger, Feel Happiness. These are all a part of your life. When we start to supress this emotions they will come back up sometime and more then likely will effect you, your environment, and the people around you. Live like a human, and keep life simple.