What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Day 124 - A much needed Yin Yoga

Have you ever had a day where the air seems much crisper, the trees seem to be much more brilliant, and everything seems to feel good in your life?  I am having one of those days.  Maybe this feeling is coming from the trip to New York, or the classes with Dharma Mittra.  I don't know.  I just feel really good.

I feel much more structured today.  Like things are slowly fitting together and falling into the right places.  That everything from my past has brought me to where I am today. 

Today I was in a Yin Yoga Class with Steve Rubin at Orlando Power Yoga.  Yin yoga is a much slower, and gentler yoga.  My brain loved the Dharma IV and V classes I took, and it is calling for more.  My body however was screaming SLOWWWWW DOWNNN.  My body thanked me today as I found bliss in class today.

In a yin yoga class you hold the postures much longer (3 minutes).  The time gives me a lot of time to breath and my mind a lot of time to think.   I noticed (as I discussed yesterday) my mind wandering into thoughts of what I "should be" doing.  Danny the traveler was wanting to plan trips.  Danny the CEO was thinking of ideas for work.  Danny the blogger was thinking of ideas to blog.  I started to laugh a bit at myself as I noticed these thoughts trying to control my brain.  Other things floated in from what to eat, to fixing things from the past.  Soooo many things to think about.  Sooo many distractions from being where I am right now.  There is also the little voice in my head trying to keep me in the right now.  It is all so crazy how much I can block myself from living. 

I watched these thoughts come and go today.  I was very much in the now today in class.  I still had a lot of these thoughts, but they did not festure, they did not stay.  It was more of a "Oh hello there thought.  Thanks for visiting me today.  Talk to you later."

So many of my thoughts are really useless, a waste of time, or pointless.  I feel like so many engraved worries or fears that have been forced into our heads over the years are such a hinder in our lives.  Where did these thoughts come from?  Why do I need these thoughts?

I thought of the many ways I try to distract myself from feeling the present.   Being in the emotional state of happy, sad, lonely, joyous, excited.  I feel like my old habits of using drugs and alcohol have forced me to try to avoid "the now" and these emotions.  Like I am supposed to try to avoid these emotions.  Now that I have been sober for 8 years, I still have tricks to try to avoid "the now".  I am seeing this in me.  I am understanding this in me, and I am making this more of a fore front in my daily thought process and practice.

I am extremely grateful I have been sober for this long.  To me it was one of my first steps on  the path to finding me.

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