I have been thinking a lot about ego this week (nothing to do with Steve or today's class). Last week when I was in Dharma Mittra's class I was amazed on how someone who has been doing yoga for 50 years and still teaches 3 times a day does not seem to have an ego. It was something I aspire to be in my life. I want to continue to learn, but stay humble knowing I will always be learning in my life.
Yoga is an excellent opportunity to either accept, grow, or diminish your ego. If you are a pretzel and twist into the "best" pose, you can tell yourself that you are better then everyone in this class. "Everyone is looking at me, beacause I can do this pose. If you are stiff as a board, and cannot touch your toes you can tell yourself that I will never be good enough. "Everyone is looking at me because I cannot do the pose." The third choice is you can just get into the pose.
I am guilty of all three of the above situations. My life is leaning towards the third choice and just get into the pose, but I admit it... I still give myself props and put myself down. There is an ego inside of me.
I have seen so many people in my life who find something they are good at, semi good at, or think they are good at. At one point of their life they decide they are better then other people. They stop and close their mind from the people who are bellow them. They stop learning and in result stop growing. I believe that every living being is here to teach each other lessons. If we go into a situation defensive with our dukes up we will never here the lesson the other person is trying to teach us.
The scariest people I see are the ones that are teachers in some healing field (yoga, massage, therapists, acupuncture . The professional should be there to heal people, but there are soul suckers that use this healing field to boost their ego. They have found love in their profession not because they are helping people, but they thrive on praise from others that thank them for healing them. This praise builds the ego and in result the teacher thrives on this praise. They may continue to take classes to improve their teaching skills, but the humble switch has turned into an ego building praise machine. They take the classes to gather more praise so they can continue to feel good about themselves. I am beginning to see these teachers as very sad people inside. Some people that I once praised as great healers I now see as stuck individuals. Please, as a healer, stay humble and take every human as a chance to grow, love, and diminish your ego.
I understand that we are all growing. I felt like last week was a giant growing part of my life. I want to grow with the world and not above the world. No one is above me as I am not above anyone. I want to stay humble in my practice. I have 49 more years and 7 more months to grow into a humble being like Dharma Mittra.
I am looking for individuals who want to grow with me. Not individuals who's goals are to grow above me. Not individuals who no longer want to grow. I am grateful for the people who have helped me grow into who I am today.