What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Day 140 - Praise or Anger



I am going to be doing a gentle yoga session at home today.  I am also thinking Christmas eve and Christmas most studios will be closed.  So I am more then likely going to be doing a few more of these at home practices.

There has been something I have been wanting to write about this week.  I have been thinking a lot about what it is that drives me.  I have been watching a lot of children playing over the week, and thinking a bunch about this topic.

When we are really little we are filled with ever changing emotions.  Our crying, forms into laughter, and then worry.  We are trying to figure out life and our emotions.  We do not care if we are crying or laughing.  We just do it.

It seems that once we hit school, rules and regulations are formed.  Our emotions are made to feel like there are only certain times we should express them.  Stop crying,  stop laughing, you need to listen.  I feel like we are then throwing these emotions into a bottle to be used when they are appropriate.  When are these times appropriate?  When I grew up and was in school, I wanted my parents, teachers, brothers, and coaches to be proud of me.  I know of others growing up that are more worried about making their elders angry.  So I am starting to feel that our emotions are put aside or bottled up in order to either stop the anger or receive the praise.   I am sure these are not the only two things, but they are what were most in the forefront in my life.

At one point in our lives (maybe our teens) we start to forget how to feel, and life becomes more about getting praise or resiting anger.  As these emotions build we need to figure out hot to release these emotions.  Let it be exercise, reading, drugs, talking.    Some of our emotions start to shut off.  This is why some of us are very serious, angry, or constantly depressed.  We forget how to be sad, happy, angry, or funny.

The more I look inside myself the more I want to tap into some of these emotions that I may have switched off.  I want to be true to my emotions like I was when I was a kid.  I want to try to drop this illusion of receiving praise or causing anger, and work on truly feeling.

I have a few different ideas on where to go, but once again I can use yoga to help find this path.  When you go to class, do you start thinking people are looking at you?  Are you looking for their praise, their attention, their doubt?  This is a perfect example of where you can start.  Put the people around you aside and ask yourself "How do I truly feel?"

For me this is 37 years of a built in structure.  It won't be an over night turn around. 

What are your thoughts on this?  Email me or leave a comment.