What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Day 147 - Becoming whole

Danny Rhodehamel becoming whole
Today is my day off.  I am getting ready for some friends to come over to do a Karma Cleanse.  We are going to write down all of our positive and negative things that either happened to us or we did throughout the year.  We are then going to burn them in a campfire with hopes of letting them go.  I do believe that everything good and bad should not be held onto.  We need to let our events, emotions, and thoughts go.  We need to appreciate them, accept them, and then move on.  This is what we are doing tonight.

I was thinking today about how I am in front of others.  On an outside appearance we are limited to what or how we present ourselves to others.  Back in high school it was important for me to present myself as a strong football player.  In college I wanted to mix in with many crowds. It was almost as if I was avoiding an identity or label.  I felt like I created the many faces of Danny.

Now I am narrowing these faces down to me.  I want to present myself as me and only me.  I want to be able to be a happy Danny, a sad Danny, an angry Danny, a frustrated Danny, or however I am feeling that day.  I want to look at myself in the mirror and say hello to the Danny in that moment.

The reason I took the picture like I did is because I still feel like part of me is missing.  I am not sure exactly how to explain this, but after my divorce I felt completely empty.  I built myself back up over the last 18 months, and honestly feel better mentally and physically then I ever have in my life.  However, I still do not feel whole.  I almost feel like I have searched my whole life to find that one thing that would complete me.  College degree, job, wife, kids, dog, material things. All these at one point were my answer to making me complete.  After years of thinking this way my brain is still programmed as if something external is my answer to feeling complete.

To become complete and to find happiness you need to look inside.  The people, material things, and events that happen will not fulfill this for you.  They are a mask or illusion that can take you away from looking into who you are.  When you start feeling sad and rely on someone to make you happy, what happens when that person is no longer there.  You need to search for your own happiness.  Once you find this and continue to keep this in your life you can enjoy life with other, you can be happy at your job, you can find love in your life. 

It was only after I had so much taken from me that I started to understand what true happiness is.

Email or Comments are always welcome.  Let me know how you search for happiness.