What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Day 182 - Kundalini

Today I went to Samadhi Center in downtown Denver.  It was my first Kundalini class.  The class was taught by Kara Brown.  Kundalini is based on waking up your energy through different breathing and postures.  There was a little chanting involved.  If you are new to yoga you would probably view this type of yoga a little more out there then many other types of yoga.  This type of yoga I think you need to drop a lot of insecurities.  You need to be OK that you pant like a dog, or chant loudly while moving your feet.  I am still a fan of series type yogas's like Ashtanga or Dharma, but I did like how it got me out of my zone.  There is a lot of knowledge to dive deep down into with Kundalini.

I did enjoy the fact that the instructor was dressed all in white (most Kundalini instructors dress in white).  Made me think a lot of my story of the woman in white (see Day 61 - The White Feather)  I also did run into the picture above where I watched the Super Bowl tonight.

I am over the days of instant gratification, and am seeking the true acceptance in life.   At one point last night though, I was getting tired of the fact that I am always trying to grow.  Why does it seem that the rest of the world is stuck in their own self absorbed life.  Why can't I just do something that would allow me to feel instant gratification?  I am over all of this, but the honesty was there was that feeling there.

I realized this morning that I have a lot of determination and dedication in my life.  I have had a lot of fun diving deeper into my soul.  I am always striving for ways to better my being and find comfort in truly meaning that I show compassion to all living things.  I can however drive myself nutts in diving deep into my soul.  There is always something we can grow on.  There is always something to improve on.

For instance, this morning I was thinking about guns and how I never have liked them.  I have had hundreds of conversations about how guns are fun, protective ect.  In my mind guns are used to detroy something and blow it into a thousand pieces.  There is not a thought of compassion while shooting a gun.  I have seen instructors asking us to show compassion to all living beings, but then are also posting pictures of them shooting automatic rifles.  It really does not make sense to me.

On the flip side, I love to play video games, and have logged in many hours on Call of Duty.  There is something to the pretend war that does not bother me.  Maybe it is the knowledge that it is not real or trying to grasp a better idea on war or what is war, but it does not bother me.  Is it ok though to be instilling these thoughts into my brain.

At what point is it OK?  I know I do not believe in shooting another living being with a gun.  Is it OK to shoot a can?  Is it OK to shoot a human online?  Is it OK to shoot a zombie online?  At what point do I decide to draw the line and say I have dove to deep into my soul.

My gut feeling is tellig me I will probably not be playing these war games much in my future.

Today I am happy with who I am.  I can improve more tomorrow or I can stay the happy and good man that I am today.