What is Yoga 308
Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Day 199 - Finding stillness
With this back injury I am being given a gift. I was thinking back to Anamaya in Costa Rica when I first started yoga308.com. I had a great opportunity to drop everything I was doing and just be. I did not worry where I was going, what I was doing, or what had happened. I lived life in stillness. When I returned life slowly started to take over again. My stillness began to fade as I started the "I gotta's" again. I gotta go to work, I gotta eat dinner, I gotta take the dog to the park. I gotta go to yoga, I gotta plan my trip, I gotta... I have a endless supply of I gotta's.
I keep saying that yoga is not about jumping into a handstand or the perfect posture. However, I think my mind still has the drive to perfect all postures. My issue lately is dropping everything and just sitting still. This evening I found myself sitting in my room realizing again that I do not have to do anything. All these "I gotta's" can wait for as long as I want. I decided to challenge myself to sit still for 1 hour on my yoga mat. Try it. It's pretty hard. I decided to not have any music and my roommates were gone. I just listened to the world. My dog snoring, the shoveling from my next door neighbor, clicking noises from the floor heater. I did a couple postures when I felt like it. I concentrated on my breath and tried to connect with it. I listened to my mind think about my breath and what posture I should do and for how long. When these thoughts came up I went back to trying to sit still.
So many thoughts try to penetrate my head. Things I need to do, things from my past, other people's problems. How I have not done handstands, gone snowboarding, yoga retreats, relationships. Every time I told myself, "Not now, I am being still." Should I have been looking for visions, feeling meditation, sitting up straighter..."Not now, I am being still."
I did not find what I believe to be a true and complete stillness where I sat with no worries in my mind, but I moved in a step in the right direction. It is something I want to practice a lot more on my own. Some parts of my life is so overpowering. Stopping and finding the now in stillness was exactly what I needed today.