What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Day 212 - Not my problem

Today I went to Dharma Yoga Level 2 at Oralando Power Yoga with Kelly Senn.  I have talked a number times on how I like series classes.  Dharma is still one of my favorites.  If I had to pick my ultimate weekly schedule I would choose 2 Ashtanga yoga classes, 2 Dharma yoga classes, and 2 Yin yoga classes.  I still want to venture around and see as many different types, studios, ect.  but that would be a fun week if I could find that schedule.  Life is exciting right now with all the opportunities that are presenting themselves to me.

As 2013 continues on, I am noticing how in the past I would take other people's problems and turn them into my problems.  I have tried to make people comfortable in their lives by taking things off of their plates and trying to give them some peace and quiet. 

People rely on other people, but there is a fine line between asking for help and taking advantage of someone.  I realize the older I get that there have been a lot of people who have taken me and my lifestyle for granted.  I used to look for "broken" people who I could help out.  Help show them a "good" life.  I would try to take care of this person.  Show them that there is good in this world.  I would stop my own growth in order to help these people.  The more I helped the less responsible they became for their lives and the more responsible I became for their lives.  Eventually I am left trying to fix their issues they never confront, and my issues seem to disappear.  My lack of growth is eventually what makes me feel as if I am being taken advantage of.  It really is my own fault though.

I recently had a conversation about how I used to do this in order to find compassion for all living beings.  The issue I was having was I was neglecting me as one of the living beings.  ALL living beings include me.  I realize that love and compassion for myself must be found before I can find love and compassion for the rest of the living beings on earth.

We all need to be responsible for ourselves, and learn how to stay responsible for ourselves.  I am no longer here to "fix" people or be responsible for another adult.  I have developed an eye for irresponsible people, and I no longer want them in my life.  I am not saying they won't be in my life, but rather saying they will not control my life.  I have WAY too many things that I want to do in this world.  At the same time I am not looking for someone else to take care of my responsibilities.   I am responsible for me.

I have also developed a good way to give back to this world.  I will not share what I do (as this is my giving that I will keep for myself).  I do want to ask that you take a moment out of each one of your days to find how you can give to this world.  Do not do it to make you look better or feel better, but rather give because that is what you want to do deep in your heart.  Try it for one week.  See how you change.