What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Day 235 - The Beating Heart

 
Today I went to Dharma Level 3 class with Kelly Senn at Orlando Power Yoga.  During my meditations I have been focusing on how I feel.  I sit there and think "OK how do I feel."  I typically concentrate on an area.  I look at the stomach, head, and lately the heart.  I keep trying to find some strong mystical feeling inside there.  As if there is going to be a giant out pour of energy escape, and I feel a magical release. I think this is often something that people think is yoga.  That we will all live in a constant peace and levitate around the world.

I constantly am striving so hard to find this emotional state of bliss.  I am going through life thinking I will find an answer to it all.  I love getting into the philosophies of life and looking for some sort of growing pattern.  I am beginning to see all of this, not as a growing pattern, but rather as a changing pattern.  My life has and always will continue to change.

Today I had the best feeling inside my heart.  I felt my heart beating.  I look so hard for the answers sometimes I forget the magic that is already going on inside of me.  We are these magical machines that work day in and day out yet we strive to find the lands of dragons and fairies.  We look to forget who we are and try to become something else.  We become shaped by the environment in front of us.

I feel like yoga, this blog, and the people I love have helped change me into who I have always been.  I think a part of me had forgotten.  The other part I think I am just starting to embrace.  Hearing my own heart beat was a reminder that I am here, I am me, and I have a past and a future.  I feel like I am here. 

Yoga is a place where you can find 90 minutes of peace, but that peace has to be found inside your heart.  If you sit in silence with only you, and you are not at peace, yoga will show you that.  If you fight through this.  If you accept the darkness as well as the light.  You will be able to accept you in both the darkness and the light.   There is no life without both darkness and light.  All of our hearts beat during both these moments.  Listen to your heart beat.  Now that is magical.