What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Friday, March 29, 2013

Day 236 - The past brings me to the now


Today I went to a Yin class with Kristen Schneider at Full Circle Yoga.  It really put me in a nice zone.  I really enjoyed the class today.  It may have been the good feelings I have had all week, but again I just feel like myself.  I haven't been in a magical crazy happy mood or a sad mood.  I have just been myself.

A lot of things came up during class today.  It was a lot of memories that were tied from my past.  Random thoughts from high school.  Moments that seem to have been frozen in time seemed to thaw and enter back into my brain (or maybe they were exiting my brain).  I thought afterwards how good it was to be able to visit the past again.   I look at my past as my path to my present.   There is no other way that I would have gotten to this peaceful feeling I have tonight without everything that happened to me in the past (good or bad).  I am coming at peace with this fact.  I am forgiving myself and accepting who I am more and more each day.

I needed to play high school football to give me the determination to push me through my life.  I had to go to college to figure out that I was an analytical engineer as well as an artist.  I had to quit my job and travel to Europe to learn that I work to live and not live to work.  The path continues on through sobriety, divorce, moving, traveling, ect.  The path made it's way all the way up to this moment.  Now the path is wide open.  So many choices in which direction to take my life

I can sit and worry about which path I need to take or sit and complain or praise my past, or I can live.  Living in the moment gives notice that memories may come up or worries of the future.  I can stop and notice them and then move on.  The now does not get sucked into the future or into the past.  The now is always around.  The now is where I find the most peace.

Now I need to go to bed.