amahita resort in Koh Samui, Thailand. Today I was still recovering from jet lag. I woke up a 3:00 a.m. and could not fall back to sleep. This is normal, but it only gave me 4 hours of sleep to work with. I decided to take a very relaxing day. Yoga started at 7:30 a.m. with a nice led meditation class. At 8:00 we were given two class options in which I took the Mysore class. I felt a bit lucky because the Mysore group was only about 4 people, so I was given a lot of attention. I learned so much about my postures in just this one practice. I pretty much lounged around the pool, beach, and got a massage before going to the 5:00 restorative yoga class.
It is interesting to me the clicks that form on these yoga retreats. There are about 50 - 60 people here all relaxing, visiting the sites, and doing yoga. Some people click better with others. It is strange that after only a couple days I feel like some of these people I will keep in touch with for a very long time.
I am beginning to see a common thread that I enjoy with people. I have noticed at the few retreats that I have gone to that there are people that can let down their guard and relax. I tend to click really nice with these people. The majority of these people here have that personality. The people I tend to steer away from are the type that keep up their mask. These people tend to hide behind what they have accomplished to mask who they really are.
I am going to make an effort to try to talk to everyone here. I will make the effort to introduce myself and not expect others to introduce themselves.
A typical greeting on retreats is "What's your name and where are you from." Everyone has the common thread of yoga so of course this is an easy area of topic. I would say for the most part that people are chilled and relaxed or may be a bit shy talking to each other because of the language gap. There are some that came to get away from people so they tend to disappear.
I am beginning to realize that the reason I enjoy yoga so much is it is a thing where I do not have to have a demand on myself. One of my goals here is to find more of a gentler side with me. I see a few of the instructors practicing the third series (way advanced), and I want to push myself to get there. Everyone I think would love to look like that doing yoga. This is the best part for me. It is a lifetime of practice. I might get to the third series postures someday, but I want to get there in a slow and gentle manner. Off the mat my personality is very self demanding. I try to do a lot of things. I do not want to become the type where my accomplishments mask who I am. I want to do the opposite and share with the world exactly who I am. Nothing to hide :)
I do not want to be around the people that I feel I must bow to their feet before talking, nor do I ever want to give that impression that people need to do that in front of me. I see us all as equals learning to grow and improve our lives. We do not have to hide behind a mask acting like we have grown or improved ourselves more then one another. We are all on different paths and we all have different things to work on. There is always a place to grow.