What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Day 248 - Forgiving the Should's

It is now day 5 here at Thailand Samahita yoga retreat.  Today was a New Moon which means no practice for a lot of Ashtanga yogi's.  They did however offer a couple classes for people who do not follow this.  I was able to do a Mysore class in the morning.  There were maybe a third of the people here that did some sort of yoga.

It was interesting how I could see some of myself in other people today.  The fact that they did not do yoga today (because of the new moon) made them feel as if they were doing something wrong.  They felt as if they Should be doing something (please see the previous blog "The Should's").  I realized that for many of the people here they have the same perfectionist attitude as I do.

I am very excited what I am learning here.  There are some postures that I feel like I can get into that maybe I felt like I couldn't do before this trip.  This excitement gives me a drive, and this drive is what makes me start with "the Should's."  I should try harder, I should be able to get into this posture, I should be like person in front of me.  I think my brain loves to search for the new excitements, but get's frustrated when I hit "the Should's. "  The thing in the middle is the drive.  The drive I am very good at.

I have switched and started to recognize when I start to hit "the should's" in my practice and in my life.  I now replace "the should's" with a forgiveness, a gentleness, or an acceptance.  I get excited if I get into a new posture, I accept that I am not in a certain posture, I forgive that I am not focused 100% of the time, and I find a gentle peace in my heart.  I continue with my excited drive, but in a forgiving manner.

Yesterday, I decided to take a break from the yoga restorative class.  I took the whole day and sat by the pool.  Instead of yoga I went and got a Thai massage on the beach.  If you have never had a Thai massage it is a massage where they almost bend you into yoga postures, but also massage out the areas of tension.  It ended up being a very relaxing day.