It is strange yet some what relaxing to be surrounded by languages I do not understand. I am starting to pick up on the different dialects. I can hear the distinct difference between Japanese, Chinese, and Thai. It is strange because I cannot understand it, but I also kind of enjoy not understanding what people are saying. I do not feel the negative energy as much when people get upset. I do not even know if they are upset half the time. In general I sense more of a happiness around these countries.
Being in Samhita Yoga retreat gave me a look on the positive side of life. Everyone there was in a great mood, on vacation, relaxing, and upbeat yoga people. There were a couple people who were complaining quite a bit. I just steered away from them.
I was also in a very zen meditative state a lot of the time. I feel like I was able to take that and apply it to the outside world. I feel more and more like I am just watching television. There are a lot of people running around here at the airport. I am trying to keep this peace from Samahita and see how long it stays in my heart.
When I got on the plane to come home I became a bit overwhelmed with emotions. I started to feel a bit depressed and sad. Bad moments from my past began to come in my mind. As they came up I thanked them for helping me become who I am today and exhaled them out. I then shifted to the other side of things, where I felt EXTREMELY grateful for my life. I was almost in tears I was so filled with positive joy, love, and gratefulness. I was grateful for everything that has come into my mind, both good and bad. I felt really really good about my current path in life. I was ecstatic about the trip to Thailand, and was grateful that I have once again found yoga in my life.
Life has been very good for me. Life seems really in perspective today. I want to give more to others when I return back to Orlando. I have a few ideas that I am planning on doing when I get back, but I tend to keep the giving gestures to myself. I encourage everyone to somehow give back to their community.
I am taking the day off from yoga because I am traveling.