What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Day 266 - Balancing Compassion with the Ego

Wow 266 days into yoga308.  Time really has flown by.  I decided to practice the Ashtanga series on my own at home this morning.  It was a good relief from the studio, and I could stop and focus on me.  Kind of a check in with where I felt I was in my practice.  My hips are still sore from pushing myself so much last week.  It is a good soreness though.

Life is a constant struggle to stay balanced.  One area that has been on the forefront of my mind is balancing compassion with the ego.  It does not sound like these two would come hand and hand, but let me explain.  In order to show compassion towards other living beings you must also find compassion inside yourself.  Forgive yourself for postures you cannot get into, mistakes you make, people you hurt.  You must also find areas where you are not harming yourself on both a physical and emotional level.

There are some people in my life that I do not want to make a connection or I have had to cut out of my life because I feel as if it would be harmful to my self's well being.  I have tried to build relationships in the past with certain personalty types, and have found myself hurt or broken.  I recognize a certain personality who's mindset is more of "how can I take advantage of people" rather then "how can that individual exchange ideas about life with me or be equal with me."  I guess someone who's ego is in their way of them living a compassionate life.

I question my lack of compassion when I do not want to be part of this person's life.  I do not want to try to help this person.  Is this just feeding my ego?  Is this leading me down a wrong path?  I start to think about if someone stood outside my house and said "I am going to stab you with this knife."  Should I let this person inside my home?  Am I not showing compassion if I slam the door in their face?  If someone was to mentally abuse me should I also shut the door in their face?  If I slammed the door on everyone who came to my house then I feel like I would have a big ego and I would be lacking compassion.  There has to be a balance in all of this.

I know that the people I currently shut the door on are people who are cutting into a wound that is not yet healed.  It happens very rarely, but I will run into these people.  I am accepting the fact that I am showing compassion to myself by not letting these people in my life.

1 comment:

  1. Its never an easy balance.

    I often just tell myself, i dont need to be a saint. If i wont protect myself in this crazy world we live in, nobody else will.

    Then im at peace.