What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Day 275 - Look Inside yourself and not the faults of others.

The honest truth is this blog is getting on my nerves.  There is a lot things that I have processed and gone through that now makes this blog seems like the reverse of where I am moving in my yoga.  One of the biggest lessons yoga has brought to me is to focus within and stop worrying and being effected by other's emotions, drama, and internal growth.  I can be there for my friends and family, but do not have to give up my thoughts, beliefs, and ideas in order to take care of theirs or others issues.  I am able to give back to people without giving up myself.

I have been venting quite a bit on this blog lately.  It is a great way to get thoughts our of my head.  It is an avenue to come clean with my faults and try to focus on improving them.  I find more and more people stop and show the faults of others instead of looking deep within.  They blame the outside world, they never apologize for mistakes, and take no responsibility for their actions.

I try to stay open and honest with my faults.  I am the first to admit my use to drugs and alchol.  I have no problem talking about the drugs I used or the alcohol I drank.  I am not different from many of you.  When I talk about the fact I no longer use these things to hide behind my true self, some people look at me as a poor soul who cannot control my use.  I stopped these things not because I was going to loose my job, girlfriend, or family.  I did it to improve myself.  I am proud of talking about this.  This was the beginning of finding out who I am.

I bring up drug and alchol use because I notice that people also hide behind other people's faults and drama.  It really is not much different then drug use.  If we constantly point out faults of others instead of ourselves we do not look inside who we are.  We are in the same way ignoring our true emotions and self.  At some point we need to stop and start trying to conquer our own fears, mistakes, and faults.  When we go to bed at night this is where our truth starts to come through our mind.  If you are scared to sleep alone start there.  If you need to drink, take sleeping aids, or need the t.v. on, start there.  We are constantly changing and trying to find our balance in our life, but we need to constantly check inside.

To update you on my diet, the last two weeks I only had one cup of coffee per week.  I am substituting it with tea for now.  I am currently drinking tea with caffeine in it, but that will change.  I feel as if I could stop drinking coffee today, but I am going to wait until I get back from Spain to make that final decision.

I still have not had chicken for who knows when.  I have not had meat since April 1st.  I was thinking of getting a cheeseburger tonight, but have decided to keep going on my current diet.  I do not have a lot of dairy / cheese in my diet (I used to drink one glass a milk every night).    I eat fish and eggs about 1 - 2 times a week.  I am realizing that yoga has helped put me on a good path.  It has caused me to focus inside and look to see things to improve.  There are things in my diet I would like to improve.  I would like to be able to say someday that I show compassion towards all living things and truly mean it.

I am wondering what will happen to this blog after day 365.  My rules of blogging may have to change.