What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Day 306 - Oh my god I drank a coffee

I went into Full Circle yoga today for a hot flow class with Kristen Schneider.  There is a tropical storm going through Florida right now and I woke up feeling really crabby.   Maybe it was the weather but I just really could not get out of the funk today.  I felt really weak and tired in class.  I also have had may legs feeling tired and achy most of the week.  My right hip feels like I may have pulled something. 

I am not sure why I was feeling down today, but I decided to treat myself to a frozen mocha milkshake.  If you do not remember I have given up coffee about 1 month ago.  I am not too concerned about the fact that I drank this tasty treat (it was really good and put a smile on my face).  My worry is more about dealing with my addictive personality.

I gave up drugs and alcohol 9 years ago, and know that I do not want to ever touch the stuff again.  There is a constant question in my mind that wonders if I am able to smoke a joint or drink one beer and then never do it again.  This I will never test.  However, I am feeling that I should be able to treat myself to one coffee and not go back to my old habits of constantly drinking coffee again.  I will keep you posted.

I recognize that we often go to the external world in a search for happiness.  The coffee that made me happy and got me out of the funk was really just a mask.  I never got to the root of why I was feeling down in the first place.  Maybe there is no explanation.  Maybe it was just something that was coming up because of previous feelings.  The more important thing for me is to deal with my emotions myself.  I do not want to ever rely on someone or something to make me happy.

Today I took a quick break from the world and drank a coffee.