What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Day 310 - Our past thought could be guiding our future.

Today I went to Full Circle Yoga and took an Ashtanga class with Steve Rubin.  I was not really wanting to do yoga today.  I did not really push myself and kind of drifted through the class.  As I drifted through the class I felt myself go pretty deep into my postures.  I pretty much just let go of things and the postures began to open up for me.  I did not intend for these postures to open up, they just kind of did.

I am finding the more I let go of the demands I put on myself the deeper my practice becomes.   The deeper my practice becomes the more I begin to let go emotionally.  Today I did not have a lot of wonder on the thoughts that entered my head.  I did not ponder them, but rather noticed them.  I let them pass through my mind, stay as long as they wanted and then pass on through.

During savasana my thoughts went back into a cabin where my friend Jonathan took his life back in March 2011.  I was in his cabin where I saw the buoy knife that was stuck through a suicide note.  Jonathan carried the wait on his shoulders and could not take the unneeded pressures that he put upon himself to make this world a better place.  He was such a good soul.  It felt weird to go back into that cabin and in that situation where we first found out he had taken his own life.  His body is still missing.

As I wrote about earlier this week, it makes me wonder on why these thoughts pop up in my brain.  2011 gave me a lot to grieve over, but I feel like I have moved through most that I need to.  I always get surprised now when these things pop up.  Obviously my body and mind are still telling me that I need to process a bit more.

When I returned from yoga I found out my friend Dave and Kelly were off to the hospital to have their first little boy.  I began to connect the thought of the death of my friend with the birth of my friends child.  I am extremely happy for my friends new adventure with their little boy.  Maybe Jonathan gave me a quick hello to help me enjoy their birth that much more?

I believe that there are connections between our past thoughts and our present feelings, emotions, and thoughts.  We should not fear out past thoughts.  It is up to us to listen to these thoughts and emotions and let them help guide us through our current life.