What is Yoga 308

Life is a constant struggle of balancing our body on both a physical and emotional side. Through yoga I have learned several life lessons. Yoga 308 is a goal I set for myself to do at least 60 minutes of yoga for 6 days a week for the next year. I invite anyone to join me on this adventure as I blog about some of my daily experiences. This is not intended to show that I have found peace and tranquility, but rather give my honest feelings of my journey. Enjoy.

Monday, July 29, 2013

Day 359 - Finding out who I am


Tonight I went to Ashtanga yoga with Steve Rubin at Full Circle Yoga.  I had a really cool experience during savasana today.  I was in a deep meditation, but could feel a shift in my brain.  I know this sounds really weird (and it is hard to explain), but I could actually feel the difference between my left side of my brain and the right side.  The left felt very free flowing while the right felt very solid.  OK, so that is my crazy moment of the day.

The other day I wrote down everything that I try to accomplish in one day.  Besides the obvious of eating, work, and sleeping, I have a lot going through my head these days.  Blogging, yoga, painting, gardening, my dog, and spending time with others.  How could I possibly go through all of my ideas and thoughts that go through my head.

Life gets frustrating when my ideas do not get the attention I hope to give them.  The reality is there are only 24 hours in the day.  These were the times I could really use a drink.  It helped numb the fact that I could not possibly do all that I wanted to do.  There are days when I have the drive to try to get everything accomplished.  Then there are days when I want to lay around and numb my brain with TV or video games.  I realize now that at one point numbing my thoughts was a routine in my life.  I really did not want to face myself or my ideas.  I hid from myself and substituted  it with someone else or something else.  That was the old me.

Yoga, painting, writing, traveling, and gardening are the tools I use to find who I am.  It is when I truly feel like myself.  It is where I feel like I am moving in a forward direction.  I have started to question what this forward direction is.  I know in my heart that I am doing the right thing.  I am just wondering why it is I need to express my life to the universe.  I am at least coming to grips that this is who I am.  I just do not quite understand why.  Maybe I hope that my words or painting will effect someone just enough to see the good in life, that life is simple, and we all have love in our heart that is waiting to explode out of us.  Maybe it is just that simple.

Life is in front of us every day.  I see a beautiful life.  I hope that everyone can figure out their path and steps to find beauty in life too.